Preparing for life in Phnom Penh has brought to my attention some issues that would never have entered my Pennsylvania mind. Case in point: Logos School offers great health insurance through a company designed for those in overseas missions. The Q & A section of the web site made me quite thankful that I'm traveling to a capitol city. (By the way, the answer was "yes.")
Q: We are serving in a remote village, a 5-day walk from the nearest airstrip, plus a plane journey away from the nearest doctor. There is, however, a police post with radio contact, which could be reached in one long day's run by a local villager. We are therefore concerned about what happens in an emergency. The program wording says it covers emergency medical airlift upon the advice of a registered practitioner. However, in our situation there are no doctors available. We would have to assess the situation ourselves, and if we thought it was an emergency, send a local runner down to the police post with a message to radio for help. Please can you give us a definite 'yes' or 'no' as to whether the policy would provide emergency helicopter lift out under these sort of conditions?
Tuesday, July 7, 2009
Wednesday, July 1, 2009
Where grief was a luxury
I mentioned in my previous post that I was moved by Loung Ung's memoir, "First They Killed My Father." Loung was 5 when the Khmer Rouge came to power in 1975, the second-youngest child in a wealthy family in Phnom Penh. She recounts their rapid descent: in weeks, she changed from the girl in the red dress who loved trips to the movie theater, to the hungry skinny girl on forced marches, to the silent girl who only seeks anonymity, who couldn't afford to cry.
I'd love to think that victims bond together in their suffering, that they bear one another's burdens. But that's often not how it works, and in Loung's case, her fellow victims increased her sorrows rather than sharing them. She spent the years from age 5 to 10 channeling her terror and grief into rage and anger. Amazingly, Loung overcame these patterns and now works from the US as an advocate against land mines, testifying to their destruction in her native Cambodia.
In one pivotal scene, her mom splits up the family, hoping that it will increase the chances one of them will survive. She convinces her kids that she's too spent by grief to love them anymore:
“Remember,” Ma whispers, “don’t go together and don’t come back.” My heart sinks as I realize Ma really is sending us away.
“Ma, I’m not going!” I plant my feet to the ground, refusing to move.
“Yes, you are!” Ma says sternly. “Your Pa is gone now, and I just cannot take care of you kids. I don’t want you here! You are too much work for me! I want you to leave!” Ma’s eyes stare at us blankly.
“Ma,” my arms reach out to her, pleading with her to take me into her arms and tell me I can stay. But she swats them back with a quick slap.
“Now go!” she turns me around by the shoulders and bends down to give me a hard swat on the butt, pushing me away.
Later, Loung tries to obey the family who has temporarily taken her in, by bringing food to their dying grandmother:
When the nurse leaves, the grandmother’s face darkens and she turns her attention to me. “What are you doing? Give me my food!” she barks at me and unwraps the banana leaves to find rice and salted pork. “Stupid girl! I know you ate some on the way. I am old and I need this more than you.” I say nothing and continue to stand there. “You are a little thief – I know you are. You are not even grateful we took you in. Stupid little thief!” Hearing her hateful words, I cannot find it in my heart to feel sorry for her anymore, and I leave her with her cries and moans and the stench of impending death.
Just after the Khmer Rouge surrenders, she and a strange girl find a body in the river while fetching water. To avoid painful emotions, she assumes he's an enemy:
“The water is too shallow. On the count of three, you push the body and I’ll push the head,” I direct. After a concerted effort, the body finally floats down the river, his long hair spreading around. The picture tugs at my heart and knots up my stomach. For a few brief seconds I think of Geak and hope the soldiers did not put her in a bag and throw her into the river. I nearly cry at the thought of someone poking at her body, but I push the tears down. “Another damn Khmer Rough,” I mutter under my breath. “I hate them. I hope they all die.” We wait a few minutes until we believe the body fluids have all floated past us before fetching our water.
The Khmer Rouge's reign of terror ended thirty years ago, but trials for their crimes against humanity are just beginning this year. Nearly everyone in Cambodia today either endured this themselves or was raised by someone who endured this. How long does it take, after crimes of this magnitude, for justice to come? And where the average citizen was both a victim and a perpetrator, how long does it take for an entire society to find healing?
I'd love to think that victims bond together in their suffering, that they bear one another's burdens. But that's often not how it works, and in Loung's case, her fellow victims increased her sorrows rather than sharing them. She spent the years from age 5 to 10 channeling her terror and grief into rage and anger. Amazingly, Loung overcame these patterns and now works from the US as an advocate against land mines, testifying to their destruction in her native Cambodia.
In one pivotal scene, her mom splits up the family, hoping that it will increase the chances one of them will survive. She convinces her kids that she's too spent by grief to love them anymore:
“Remember,” Ma whispers, “don’t go together and don’t come back.” My heart sinks as I realize Ma really is sending us away.
“Ma, I’m not going!” I plant my feet to the ground, refusing to move.
“Yes, you are!” Ma says sternly. “Your Pa is gone now, and I just cannot take care of you kids. I don’t want you here! You are too much work for me! I want you to leave!” Ma’s eyes stare at us blankly.
“Ma,” my arms reach out to her, pleading with her to take me into her arms and tell me I can stay. But she swats them back with a quick slap.
“Now go!” she turns me around by the shoulders and bends down to give me a hard swat on the butt, pushing me away.
Later, Loung tries to obey the family who has temporarily taken her in, by bringing food to their dying grandmother:
When the nurse leaves, the grandmother’s face darkens and she turns her attention to me. “What are you doing? Give me my food!” she barks at me and unwraps the banana leaves to find rice and salted pork. “Stupid girl! I know you ate some on the way. I am old and I need this more than you.” I say nothing and continue to stand there. “You are a little thief – I know you are. You are not even grateful we took you in. Stupid little thief!” Hearing her hateful words, I cannot find it in my heart to feel sorry for her anymore, and I leave her with her cries and moans and the stench of impending death.
Just after the Khmer Rouge surrenders, she and a strange girl find a body in the river while fetching water. To avoid painful emotions, she assumes he's an enemy:
“The water is too shallow. On the count of three, you push the body and I’ll push the head,” I direct. After a concerted effort, the body finally floats down the river, his long hair spreading around. The picture tugs at my heart and knots up my stomach. For a few brief seconds I think of Geak and hope the soldiers did not put her in a bag and throw her into the river. I nearly cry at the thought of someone poking at her body, but I push the tears down. “Another damn Khmer Rough,” I mutter under my breath. “I hate them. I hope they all die.” We wait a few minutes until we believe the body fluids have all floated past us before fetching our water.
The Khmer Rouge's reign of terror ended thirty years ago, but trials for their crimes against humanity are just beginning this year. Nearly everyone in Cambodia today either endured this themselves or was raised by someone who endured this. How long does it take, after crimes of this magnitude, for justice to come? And where the average citizen was both a victim and a perpetrator, how long does it take for an entire society to find healing?
Tuesday, June 30, 2009
How I Spent My Summer Vacation
So I thought that I would write sooner after my last brief article spilled my major news. It’s not that I’ve had too little to write about, but rather too much. I've been doing a lot of thinking about the next two years...Maybe I’ll chicken out and start with a few recent events. It’s been a jam-packed month of June!
Teaching:
I committed to Logos School on May 30th, with 3 weeks remaining in the school year. In those three weeks, my AP students finished a chapter book that I love and translated a number of popular German songs into English. On June 9, their last day of normal classes, I sent them off into the world to soar and reach for the stars and be all they could be.
Meanwhile, underclassmen had another week and a half. My German II students cheered with me when I told them we were done learning new material: I had crammed so many chapters into their poor brains since December. They and German IV both got to watch a movie in German (with subtitles), having finished the year review with a few days to spare. One class even got to play Blind Soccer during finals week, where coaches instructed their blindfolded teammates in German with directions like “Nach links! Schiess den Ball!” (To the left! Shoot the ball!) I stole this game from Mr. Hindman, my mentor teacher, because it is hilarious to watch.
Friends:
Eric and Ruth after the rigged bouquet/garter toss at Sean & Hillary's wedding
The K-House has been abuzz all semester in anticipation of not one but TWO weddings: my housemate Sean to Hillary on June 14, and Hillary’s roommate/my good friend Ruth to Eric on June 21. They were even in each other’s wedding parties. Both were lovely and included 4-part harmony in Mennonite hymns, plenty of laughter, some dear friends no longer in State College, and dancing to this song. Ruth and Eric’s wedding was a sweet way to say goodbye to many people. Back in Doylestown in the last week, I’ve enjoyed an old-fashioned frolic at Lake Galena with friends from way back, girl time at home (the boys were gone last week), and…brace yourselves…two movie theater trips in one weekend! (My first two of 2009.)
Appointments and Errands:
I’ve had 3 doctors’ appointments: a regular physical, eye care, and a travel clinic. At the travel clinic, I learned ways to avoid fun stuff like typhoid (a shot), dengue fever (wear bug spray), and parasites (don’t eat the salad). I have 3 prescriptions to fill, but am weighing the benefits of super-cheap drugs there of *mostly* decent quality. I’m delighted that Phnom Penh is malaria-free, unlike anywhere else in Cambodia.
I realized early last month that my passport had conveniently vanished. After one personal day, $200, a trip to Philadelphia, and an urgent phone call to Cambodia, I have a replacement – and even a visa to go with it.
I have a plane ticket! It’s just over $2000 (thankfully Logos will reimburse me), incorporates stops in Detroit and Tokyo, covers 3 meals, and even includes a free overnight stay in the Hong Kong airport. So much fun packed into a brief 37 hours!
Books:
I decided that reading was one of the best ways to prepare for Cambodia. I’m trying to read books about Cambodia, books about teaching English, books about living overseas, and the books that I’ll be teaching this fall. There’s no way I can get through my whole reading list, but I’m giving it my best shot.
What I’ve read in the past month:
First They Killed My Father – poignant and majorly disturbing true story from the Khmer Rouge era. I’ll include some quotes in a separate post.
Paradise Lost – after 3 pages, I stopped reading and concluded that there is no way I’m teaching that book this year. If this book is paradise, then I guess it’s my loss... (sorry!)
Killing Fields, Living Fields – a detailed history of the Cambodian church. I’m taking notes on it because I found it overwhelming at first, but it brings together nicely the spiritual developments in individual Cambodians and the political developments in the greater society.
Till They Have Faces – C.S. Lewis merges a number of mythic figures in this tale of beauty and love, inspiring me to look up Psyche and Iphigenia and Antigone. I’m not finished, but already excited to teach this alongside Greek mythology in eighth grade.
My Sister’s Keeper – OK, so this one is unrelated to Cambodia. But Julia loves it, and since it just came out as a movie, my mom and I rushed to read it before seeing it Sunday night with her and some friends. It’s a sobering portrait of lives intertwined with a cancer sufferer, and the strain on a mom to pour herself into her daughter’s recovery without neglecting her other kids. Parts are sappy, but much of it rang true.
I have another 15 or so after these: wish me luck!
Teaching:
I committed to Logos School on May 30th, with 3 weeks remaining in the school year. In those three weeks, my AP students finished a chapter book that I love and translated a number of popular German songs into English. On June 9, their last day of normal classes, I sent them off into the world to soar and reach for the stars and be all they could be.
Meanwhile, underclassmen had another week and a half. My German II students cheered with me when I told them we were done learning new material: I had crammed so many chapters into their poor brains since December. They and German IV both got to watch a movie in German (with subtitles), having finished the year review with a few days to spare. One class even got to play Blind Soccer during finals week, where coaches instructed their blindfolded teammates in German with directions like “Nach links! Schiess den Ball!” (To the left! Shoot the ball!) I stole this game from Mr. Hindman, my mentor teacher, because it is hilarious to watch.
Friends:
Eric and Ruth after the rigged bouquet/garter toss at Sean & Hillary's wedding
The K-House has been abuzz all semester in anticipation of not one but TWO weddings: my housemate Sean to Hillary on June 14, and Hillary’s roommate/my good friend Ruth to Eric on June 21. They were even in each other’s wedding parties. Both were lovely and included 4-part harmony in Mennonite hymns, plenty of laughter, some dear friends no longer in State College, and dancing to this song. Ruth and Eric’s wedding was a sweet way to say goodbye to many people. Back in Doylestown in the last week, I’ve enjoyed an old-fashioned frolic at Lake Galena with friends from way back, girl time at home (the boys were gone last week), and…brace yourselves…two movie theater trips in one weekend! (My first two of 2009.)
Appointments and Errands:
I’ve had 3 doctors’ appointments: a regular physical, eye care, and a travel clinic. At the travel clinic, I learned ways to avoid fun stuff like typhoid (a shot), dengue fever (wear bug spray), and parasites (don’t eat the salad). I have 3 prescriptions to fill, but am weighing the benefits of super-cheap drugs there of *mostly* decent quality. I’m delighted that Phnom Penh is malaria-free, unlike anywhere else in Cambodia.
I realized early last month that my passport had conveniently vanished. After one personal day, $200, a trip to Philadelphia, and an urgent phone call to Cambodia, I have a replacement – and even a visa to go with it.
I have a plane ticket! It’s just over $2000 (thankfully Logos will reimburse me), incorporates stops in Detroit and Tokyo, covers 3 meals, and even includes a free overnight stay in the Hong Kong airport. So much fun packed into a brief 37 hours!
Books:
I decided that reading was one of the best ways to prepare for Cambodia. I’m trying to read books about Cambodia, books about teaching English, books about living overseas, and the books that I’ll be teaching this fall. There’s no way I can get through my whole reading list, but I’m giving it my best shot.
What I’ve read in the past month:
First They Killed My Father – poignant and majorly disturbing true story from the Khmer Rouge era. I’ll include some quotes in a separate post.
Paradise Lost – after 3 pages, I stopped reading and concluded that there is no way I’m teaching that book this year. If this book is paradise, then I guess it’s my loss... (sorry!)
Killing Fields, Living Fields – a detailed history of the Cambodian church. I’m taking notes on it because I found it overwhelming at first, but it brings together nicely the spiritual developments in individual Cambodians and the political developments in the greater society.
Till They Have Faces – C.S. Lewis merges a number of mythic figures in this tale of beauty and love, inspiring me to look up Psyche and Iphigenia and Antigone. I’m not finished, but already excited to teach this alongside Greek mythology in eighth grade.
My Sister’s Keeper – OK, so this one is unrelated to Cambodia. But Julia loves it, and since it just came out as a movie, my mom and I rushed to read it before seeing it Sunday night with her and some friends. It’s a sobering portrait of lives intertwined with a cancer sufferer, and the strain on a mom to pour herself into her daughter’s recovery without neglecting her other kids. Parts are sappy, but much of it rang true.
I have another 15 or so after these: wish me luck!
Sunday, May 31, 2009
The next two years...
So remember the post in March, when I told you I'd be in the US for at least the next year? If by "the US" I really meant "Cambodia," then that would be true.
That's right. I'm teaching in Cambodia's capitol, Phnom Penh, for the next two school years.
The short version (since State College still has school tomorrow):
-Teaching English in grades 7-12 and possibly a French 1 class
-At Logos International School, a private Christian school
-Students' family backgrounds range from wealthy Cambodian businesspeople, to missionaries from Korea and North America, to a local orphanage
-I'll be living with 1-3 other new teachers
-Orientation starts July 27 (!)
More to follow.
That's right. I'm teaching in Cambodia's capitol, Phnom Penh, for the next two school years.
The short version (since State College still has school tomorrow):
-Teaching English in grades 7-12 and possibly a French 1 class
-At Logos International School, a private Christian school
-Students' family backgrounds range from wealthy Cambodian businesspeople, to missionaries from Korea and North America, to a local orphanage
-I'll be living with 1-3 other new teachers
-Orientation starts July 27 (!)
More to follow.
Monday, April 27, 2009
My dog ate your homework...
"Meine Hundin hat eure Hausaufgaben gefressen." That's what I had to tell a few of my students recently after spending Easter weekend at home. I returned from some errands to discover that Demi had ransacked my "teacher bag," gouging out a chunk of the bag, shredding manila envelopes and old sandwich bags, unzipping pockets to devour my granola bar, and yes: nicking a few corners from student assignments. She looks so sweet and innocent, and she used to be (more or less)...maybe we can blame her recent turn for the destructive on a midlife crisis, since she's turning 10 this year.
In related news, teaching can be really really fun. There are days when I feel that I'm not getting anywhere, and that everything I learn is at the expense of my students' mental anguish. But there are also days when I just love it. Here are some recent highlights:
1. I asked my AP students to write essays mimicking NPR's "This I believe." And in so doing, I learned that my students believe in:
-Aliens
-Dancing barefoot in the rain
-Being mediocre
-Winking
2. My German IV students, as part of their fairy tale unit, had to write one of their own. (See above for our class illustration of Hänsel und Gretel, based on students' descriptions.) They got pretty creative while writing, incorporating everything from a compost heap with appendicitis to an army consisting entirely of toast. We're assembling a book with the entire collection to continue a longstanding German IV tradition.
3. We had a debate today on the Wehrdienst, or Germany's military/civil service requirement. Everyone took on a role, like Billy: "I'm the loving mother of three children," and Ben, who while discussing his lifelong dream of driving a tank, invented an excellent new word: "destroyuieren." That's up there with translating "cowgirl" as "Kuh-Mädchen. :-)
4. In German II, we've had fun looking at different texts. I came across a German quiz show ("Wetten, Dass) that's world-famous for its crazy stunts. We watched two fun examples, although my favorite (which involved throwing plungers) has since disappeared. We also had a chance to read dumb questions that Germans have been asked while in the USA. For example: "You guys have your own language? I thought you spoke English with an accent!" Or: "Are there problems with the German-Chinese border?"
In related news, teaching can be really really fun. There are days when I feel that I'm not getting anywhere, and that everything I learn is at the expense of my students' mental anguish. But there are also days when I just love it. Here are some recent highlights:
1. I asked my AP students to write essays mimicking NPR's "This I believe." And in so doing, I learned that my students believe in:
-Aliens
-Dancing barefoot in the rain
-Being mediocre
-Winking
2. My German IV students, as part of their fairy tale unit, had to write one of their own. (See above for our class illustration of Hänsel und Gretel, based on students' descriptions.) They got pretty creative while writing, incorporating everything from a compost heap with appendicitis to an army consisting entirely of toast. We're assembling a book with the entire collection to continue a longstanding German IV tradition.
3. We had a debate today on the Wehrdienst, or Germany's military/civil service requirement. Everyone took on a role, like Billy: "I'm the loving mother of three children," and Ben, who while discussing his lifelong dream of driving a tank, invented an excellent new word: "destroyuieren." That's up there with translating "cowgirl" as "Kuh-Mädchen. :-)
4. In German II, we've had fun looking at different texts. I came across a German quiz show ("Wetten, Dass) that's world-famous for its crazy stunts. We watched two fun examples, although my favorite (which involved throwing plungers) has since disappeared. We also had a chance to read dumb questions that Germans have been asked while in the USA. For example: "You guys have your own language? I thought you spoke English with an accent!" Or: "Are there problems with the German-Chinese border?"
Saturday, April 4, 2009
Baby's First Year
A recent college graduate, especially as a new teacher, is kind of like a baby adult. Babies experience many changes and milestones in a short period of time. Proud parents like to keep close track of these milestones and record them for posterity's sake. But not all of you "proud parents" live with me to track my every move. So here's a helpful guide for those of you playing along at home. In the last week or two, we've seen:
1. "Baby's First Discovery of Cheating" - with a textbook open to the vocab page during a test.
2. "Baby's First Confrontation" - where the student acted indignant at the suggestion of wrongdoing.
3. "Baby's First Parent Conference" - with the father trying desperately to believe, against all odds, in his son's innocence.
4. "Baby's First Interaction with the Assistant Principal" - who graciously backed her up throughout the incident, enabling said Baby to navigate #1-3 unscathed.
5. "Baby's First Police Escort" - no, wait, that would have been Baby's mentor teacher a few years back, whose screaming parent visitor required a chaperone to enforce her departure. Guess we'll have to postpone this one a little longer in my book.
6. "Baby's First In-Class Lesson Plan" - supposing, hypothetically, that I had at one point this week (say, yesterday in 6th period) not finished planning class until during their quiz. If this had happened, it would have worked out much better than one might suspect.
7. "Baby's First Proselytization" - by a Vedic guy who forcefully sought to convince me that I was really Vedic and had never realized it, and that by scrapping my belief in Jesus' divinity, I would understand true Christianity. Don't hold your breath for "Baby's First Conversion."
8. "Baby's First Recipe Invention" - apparently African ground nut stew, minus three key ingredients, plus four or five others, still tastes awfully good.
9. "Baby's First Shoefly Pie" - because anyone who leaves their shoes directly in front of the oven is secretly asking for toasted shoes.
10. "Baby's First Credit Card" - nothing says "grown-up" like the chance to spend money you don't have. Look out, King of Prussia!
11. "Baby's First Towing" - um, by the way, Mom and Dad... (It sure LOOKED like non-permit parking.)
12. "Baby's First Time Being Told She Looks Like a College Graduate" - actually still waiting for that one too, since most strangers still peg Baby as a high school student. (She's growing up so fast!)
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